i quit. not because I want to but because she was filled with evil. not that I do not love but she chose evil and used it against me and I know I don't deserve anything less but her best from me only. she stopped being close to God and feed her lust of the flesh when she already had me actually who would love her as much as she wanted in God's timing, so woe to her and cursed be to her for repaying evil with kindness, she literally took everything from me, money health, time and felt no remorse at all for doing evil to me when I was kind and still helped her. today it has shown that the demon cheena person got her and I know that God is on my side because she left God and she'll never be with him in love at least cos he never loved her but he was the third party that satan put to break us up. but it's fine cos because of her she made me sin too

Dear God I'm sorry.

Sorry for listening and allowing evil.

Sorry I got pissed with her attitude, I just needed her as before and also she said she had no motivation, I always motivated her in the past and gave her all the time, something no one else would and could ever do, time I didn't even have.

Anyway if she wants to continue all we dreamt of and said she has to change.

I'll do my things I have to doe u.. today wasted another 4 hours because of her.. it's depressing to know such a person who would go all out to harm u and do evil to u and tell lies and deceit about u when all u wanted to is a good relationship and communication and love, something she was before satan changed her.. she wanted a good relationship without cycles but why must she do it? May she be cursed to never remain and never get a family and be single cos God u saw all that happened and I claim your judgement upon her, I honestly didn't do anything to deserve this, esp when I gave her space. She cheated at least 2 times and now she's using the very device I got for her for her own good to do this evil towards me.

It's okay then so be it. I had enough and I am sorry for not focusing on u.

Please forgive me and help me to do what I need to do.. I'm sorry I couldn't do this right for u God, it was beyond my control. I truely loved her as u showed me but I'm sorry that old Sara was taken by evil.. I'm sorry I failed to bring her closer to you.

So sorry God. I really am. My prayer is, just be with me as I've always been with u. Let me live my life for you once again cos the best is yet to be and to God be the glory 🙏🥲

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