God are you with me (or not?)

God, where are you?

God were you even with me yesterday in the exam? Did I get too complacent after picking the first topic? I didn't mean to, and if I did in anyway, I'm really sorry.

God I need you, I really do. Why God, why things happen 😭 

Did evil really came into me for all that happened with Sara?

Like didn't I tell you if you don't help me there's no point? I cannot do anything w/o u, idw to do anything in vain.

God, I really did not want to bring disgrace to your name, I really just wanted to give u joy and others too.. but now, idk. I want to honour u, well God thank you for hearing one opportunity, I will try that, please bless me for the extra time here so that I can honour u.

Lastly, why has it been so hard to study nowadays? Like how God... Today I tried so hard to understand, ik i didn't really ask u but if I did as before would it be of any use? It seems I'm so slow you know Lord.

God can u please help me with my life? Didn't the Bible promise you'll be with the broken hearted, the poor, etc and you'll give back everything and more? Why Lord, tell me what happened, please tell me what happened.. where are you Lord.. how can I tell others of you when it looks like you're not even in my life... I wanna be pure holy serve u but nothing.. is what Satan says true or is it a lie? Idk God, but if you're my God, ik you'll fight for me, I need u and I wanna see u do that for me again, so I can do many many more things for u, to honour u in my life and to save others... I mean, I see opportunities, that I'm sure the Holy Spirit gave me but God, how? If you don't help me how. Where are you when I need you the most? 

I love you God, I really do, if you don't hear my prayers then hear the people who pray for me.. unless they don't belong to u too. God, I need a miracle, and if I don't trust u anymore (I want to know that I still do and am able to), God I am going to trust this season in my life to you and I hope I'll be able to share this testimony to others, and I want to be the doctor for the OA... God protect me from the devil, put your divine fence of protection around me, only because you love me and I belong to you, I wanna know I belong to you cos if I don't, all I do in my life is useless and pointless, but for what I wanna do for you, Lord, and be good, may I find a small favour in you and bless me, your servant, so that I can be the best I can be for you, anyway isn't it the best is yet to be? To God be the Glory 🙏✝️

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