crying

Dear blog, I'm crying..
Firstly my heart is so pain, and it's even more pain when I have to do things to get her attention.

God where are u when evil is attacking me.. I'm sorry God, I will and I want to chose to be with you, like, even if she isn't with u i should still be with u but why do I feel so sad for her?

Isn't true love suppose to be simple and not sad at all? Why do people make things so complex?

I'm sorry God, maybe I blew all chances with her already but I wanna keep my promise to you and I need your help to let her go, let her go to you cos I know you'll take care of her for me and show her the way cos I cannot and I'm so sorry. Like I just want to be loved too 😭 wasn't that something she knows too? Like what did Satan even do to her to become like this? If there wasn't a third party this wouldn't have happened and she knows it too, she knows this time round is a rebound relationship that will never happen but why would she even travel the globe for someone who is already unworthy in words and actions? To say such things when he is the third party to destroy us that's exactly what satan wants. How come she can don't want to communicate, anyway I'm no good w/o her.

Cannot belief im crying even for her when doing this

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