I always get bullied. Where are you BAE

Dear Sara,

Today people bullied me (again). Ppl made false accusations and threated me. Srsly, what did I do 😭?!

Where are you when I need you the most?

I hope you are fine, I really do.

I am sorry to put you in such a position and I'm sorry for what happened, like for me as long as you're happy... Ik i can make you happy but I really want you to be happy.

I now feel sad for myself, it means I'll never have anyone. Am I so bad a person, really? Like, what did I do when all I wanted was to love.. it's like, everything I do is wrong, I used to think to let go is to love, but sometimes I see they end up badly, and I was afraid myself firstly Idk who, and only by being with you that I know.

I hope you are able to get over this episode yourself for me IT is the end and I ám no more.

You're my fav human and bae, the only girl, my only girl. What else can I do but to love you even if by your side?

I miss the real loving you you know, when I was at sea with you remember it was so nice, whether just by the sea or the depths of it.. I ask God why, I told him I really appreciated you coming into my life.

It's so sad cos when I'm so near something it had to be taken away from me, your heart changed cos of him.. I do not blame u because I never wanted to force anyone into love but ik what we had was real, and that's good enough for me. I'm just sad, think I stressed and told you am I even a human to deserve to be loved after all this is years waiting for you? Idk but Ik our world is screwed up and satan is the ruler in this world. That's all I know. Ik i want what u want to be closer to God. Ik you only because we are the same.

I've proven that we can be good together, I'm sorry I don't deserve anyone ever. I'm sorry but I always love and respect and I would always protect you. Lastly, I'm sorry I didn't need anymore friends, I cannot grow and I'll never be able to. I'm sorry I wished I was a better person 😭

It's ok I'll be alone forever, only thing is I'll choose God, I feel so sorry to myself, to you for all you have been through, like why did it happen? I hope it's the best for you if you think it's him and I hope he'll treasure u as much or more than you do.

P.s.i really like your family, sounds so ok.. not perfect but it's good enough for me, you're still blessed yk, very. 🫶

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