Life by the Spirit - Onward Christian Soldiers, Sure & Steadfast, Love, Joy & Hope in Christ

Dear God, Sorry I'm not good enough to be loved. Why am I not good enough to be loved by the closest person I've known in my life so far? Why would she choose someone online over me? What have I done wrong? Why did I even let it happen? What am I no good that she wouldn't choose me when she accepted me first all along and even assured me that I would be the one? What did I do so wrong that I deserve to be only a friend, when I just want to get married and have a family like everyone else, a Christian one... Like, why would she even send pictures to him online or even let him convince that she loved him and have to be in a relationship with him? How do I even lose to someone younger when she was the only one that accepted me for who I am at first? God how did a good thing like this between me and her, that I was here first, come to this? Should I have been more strong and forced my way like him so that she'll fall for me first? How did her heart even get stolen by him......

Dear God sorry for getting involved in love, I am so sorry. So sorry for being distracted, I really want to pass, please help me to be serious for your glory. God why does the devil hurt me in love, don't all good things come from you? Then why does love like this, am I so hard to love and so unlovable to others? When I honestly gave my all? That was all I ever did only, to give my all

God. I Need you. Sorry for being so distracted with the girl. I didn't mean it.. sorry for making her and obsession when you should be the first in my life. God I didn't mean it, to do it or what.. it's just that I've so alone all these years, and to have someone to accept me, someone who is Christian and could be the mother of my kids, it's so rare... But why God, if you allow us to happen, why must there be a distraction and a third party who fulfilled her needs somehow? Why will I never be good enough, she accepted me for who I am only to release me for another who I literally saw him using manipulative tactics to get her to fall in love with him. She changed so much just because of him it saddens me. Why I'm unwilling to give up is because she can accept me and she checked all the ticks and is your child, not perfect but I could sense it and God, didn't u put her in my life to love her? God what have I done, I didn't want to sin anymore, all I need i...

https://www.bonobology.com/signs-she-has-someone-else/ Dear blog, why do people even 'cheat'? How can a person go out with one but go with another? Why did she go with him when she said nothing would happen at all? When she kept saying no to him, when she never wanted an ldr? I may not know him personally but what I knew was he got her trapped... I could see how he did it but I couldn't stop her from getting in and even put ideas in her head. Dear God, why am I so dumb? The girl that I actually do love, the one I've been waiting for all these years, the one I go out, date, do things with, am I not enough for her that she felt so lonely and had to let someone online make her feel good? Did I do wrongly? Even what I did may not be correct, but I felt she needed it and I could sense it just that I had to have some discipline and control myself. I'm fine to have it, if it's good for us, just DW to lose her. Am I that bad a person that no one wants to be with? I need...

God, bloggie... Dear God,  'Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight' - Proverbs 3:5-6 ACTS - Adoration, Contrition, Thankfulness, Supplication  A Dear God, you are the God who is the creator of Heaven and Earth, the one who is my God from the beginning of my life. The God of love in the Bible who sent Jesus Christ, your son to come down to this Earth to die for our sins. The all powerful, almighty and all knowing God... I thank you for everything in my life, help me to be appreciative of the things and people I have in my life. Abba father in heaven, what can I do to live a life that's pleasing to you?  C God you know my thoughts and hearts desire, please forgive me for my manifold sins and wickedness. Holy Spirit, reveal yourself to me as I take this time to pray with you and rededicate my life to you, because I want to do good. God, forgive me for keeping on wast...

 Hey again bloggie, my best place to share my thoughts with you I have a question.. what is/are feelings? Are feelings always related to sex, flirting, sweet words? sex that 'isn't good', creates no feeling? What about flirting that was good but stopped cos one side heart changed? sweet words and manipulation tactics that I read in dating sites, idk... why do humans have to do it in the first place, and its really proven to work sadly?! It makes ppl get attached? Other question I have is how can one go with more than one people at a time and dump the one that is real and good for their future? Is now more important than the future of the possibility of getting hurt? Or how can one go with a person and do things but not have feelings but show everything that they enjoy the full experience?  But it is ok, I need to focus on what is important now too... I only can believe that all things would work for the good of all who love him and also that if its God's will, it will c...

Dear blog, Am I really no good to love? Why do I always lose to other guys, why does it always have to happen at the same time when all I was thinking was to do my best and to love the girl. Weren't I the first as she said? I'm sure she felt it too, except that I may have screwed up. It wasn't supposed to be bad, all I wanted was to make her feel good. Idk God, this girl checked everything, she may not be perfect but she is more than good enough for me and also she checked everything that you told me (other than others but for me she is good enough).. she's the closest human being and my fav human, but why does it have to happen that she got stolen with someone who didn't do as much for her from the very beginning? How did she get stolen by sweet words, manipulative actions and also how did he manage to get so much sex out of her that got her hooked into him? When he has so many others, why must he fight with me in the end? Making her think it's indeed true love...