Life by the Spirit - Onward Christian Soldiers, Sure & Steadfast, Love, Joy & Hope in Christ

Dear love, Just want to say goodbye for awhile, family my dear, after all that's happened, I don't give a damn.. though it may be your misfortune that I'll always love you, but in fact it isn't cos it'll be good for the both of us and we both know it. "I only know that I love you. That's your misfortune." "I'd cut up my heart for you to wear if you wanted it." "Why are you so blind? Why can't you see that no matter what happens, I shall always love you?" - you're so brutal to those who love you. "Why is it a girl has to be so silly to catch a boyfriend? Anyone as selfish and determined as you are is never helpless.  As God is my witness, as God is my witness they're not going to lick me. I'm going to live through this and when it's all over, I'll never be hungry again." "After all, tomorrow is another day." Esp so I need to do my things and pass exams and be better for God. And yes my ...

 Frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn… wished I can be as cool as that. So, she did it again, and enough is enough; really did me in this time. Don’t understand why people can cheat and I never would. Got to start doing work now, I will try my best. God, if u hear my cries, if you are the God that I had childlike faith in, don’t forget me. Help me with my life and current situation, and in my studies too. Idk what’s wrong with me, I try so hard but always things don’t work out, in every thing and the person that supposedly understands and knows and loves me the most cheated on me, bae forever and you’re always first… but she lied time and time again. Also, God, why am I not successful or bearing fruits no matter how hard to try or work. My dream when young was to earn lots of money for my parents and buy a bmw for dad, childish dreams lol but all I wanted was just to earn enough to pay for family things and get my parents debt free and retire them, which didn’t prove successful and...

Dear God can I give you my life once again? If you're God can you make good out of this whole situation for the both of us? I'm sure she loves me because you showed me that time, why do you allow this to happen then? Cos we both strayed Idk God I only know the Holy Spirit can speak to her, only you can, God why do I feel like fighting against your will if it's no longer working? Didn't you show? God didn't u tell me that beauty will come out of this after all that we've been through? God I wanna spend time with u but it's always what I'm going through, you are powerful and all, why did she even change? What happened between us? God, I don't see me passing or having a future... Like I seem to fail in all I do, I really try so hard and I am sorry to fail you

 Dear God, it is the second of May, my exams are soon and I have not started studying for it because I am lacking behind. I am sad, distracted, tired; I wasted the whole day today and I lost so much money over 2 days (sigh). I thank you for the pizza today, wasn't cheap like $22sgd but I really needed to destress and eating food and not cooking is one way, it was bad tbh, pizzas here in Hungary are really bad generally and expensive. The pizza in Spain was good, and Croatian ones near Italy was just nice nice. I need your help. first exams, help me to make full use of the time. Sorry God for not going to church, I want to, from the bottom of my heart.Just feel so alone and I don't want to meet people, I just want to be with you with all the sadness. God, I have no money, what should I do? What about Japan? please provide if us, not because we deserve it but because we belong to you. God I am sorry, I have a question for you tho, why do I always face relationships problems? Why ...