Life by the Spirit - Onward Christian Soldiers, Sure & Steadfast, Love, Joy & Hope in Christ

Dear blog, I sinned today :( Dear God am I not worth for the girl at all? Is there any way I can win back her heart when she was literally stolen from me right in front of my eyes?! Can I still believe that she is everything she said, that she is content with what she have that is real and God, I too want to believe that you put us together for a good reason. God, can you help that 3rd party? Why must he 'fight' with me when he is so far away and if he really wanna do things for her he would have done it long ago and not tempt and seduce her and trap her heart. Don't know, Lord, did I do wrongly by not capturing her heart in that manner? Isn't the Bible and all about love, etc? I'm sad Lord. Anyway thank you for the grace and help me with the exams prep, to be prepared, and to always do my best and achieve the best for you, for you honour and glory.. cos all and everything in my life belongs to you 🙏❤️

My darling princess, it pains me to think everyday about the current situation of us (really can't help it); sometimes I think like how can u forget all the good we had, is it like throwing it all away? How did u change so much just because someone online told you that you are already like a couple, when all you did with him was nothing compared to the real things we did; sure I wouldn't discount the fact that you did things with him on the romantic level, especially things which got you 'hooked', attached and his constant pushing and pulling created the fear of losing him, with constant pleading and reminders of romantic experiences you both had virtually, using it to push for a relationship; I may not know him as well as a person or at an individual level, but I know what I saw, anyone who sees it knows the 'trap', but you were blinded by lust that he created in you and made you crave for it. I am sad cos unexpectedly you're the girl that I've been wai...

Dear God, I know you are the God of good things, you are the creator of heaven and earth, of man and animals, the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end. I also know that all things work for the good of those who love him, I know that all good things come from you and I also know that what happened recently in my life, right here where I am now, is not by chance or luck, but that it is your divine appointment. God, thank you for the chance of my current situation, of even being here, please forgive me for being angry/mad at you for what happened in year one, but I thank you that I still can be provided for here, sorry for wasting time and I just pray God, please continue to provide for me because I do not have money or resources to study this course finish, and also to continue to grant me the energy, wisdom, knowledge, understanding, the ability to study for you to be a good doctor, for real life and once again I ask for help in the exams, grant me whatever i need to pass it, ...