Life by the Spirit - Onward Christian Soldiers, Sure & Steadfast, Love, Joy & Hope in Christ

Dear God, What happened? How did her heart get stolen with sweet talks, how can someone who had the intention of getting her right from the start steal her with sweet words and let her do things of s** she crave... Only that I lost her heart? What did I do wrong dear God, that she treat me like this, weren't we good before she got closer to him? We had things going well why need a 'romantic relationship' as he said?  All along I thought love was love, pure love as in the Bible. God sorry if I'm not able to bring her closer to you, I'm sorry for wasting time moaning and not being focus. I have a day left, still haven't finished videos and lecture notes, please give me the grace to do finish today... Gonna go get some things now. Continue to provide me and sorry for all the sins, help me to be good, ik she'll really help me to.

 Dear God, It's 3am. I have exam. I have not done the slides. God, somehow I lost hope; hope for the future... I mean, I've tried so hard in my life, only to have things that seem to work out but maybe not? God, I should focus and do my best for you; not to sin, but to spend time with you here alone and obey you. Thank you for the peaceful night time alone with you right now, because all these time I have alone with you, I really sincerely enjoy it and treasure it and am happy to be just able to talk to you. God, how long is my life? Why do I feel like I am wasting it away? I want to do my best for you, I want to serve you and all; why didn't I just chose to be a pastor from young? Somehow I just wanted to be in the world, for you and come back later (ideally). Wanted to get married but still single, wanted to earn lots of money not for myself but for my parents and for your work, but atlas I'm just a poor old unfilial son :'( Am I so bad for any girl truely? The gi...

When a girl's heart changes, it does fast especially when it is seduced and stolen. God, you know what happened and I believe you are the God who always make things good so if it's meant to be and if it's your Will for all things good, in your name I curse this 'relationship' that she thinks she's in. Cos you Lord, are almighty God and I'm sorry I got distracted but please help me to do my best for you always first, to put you first always